There are a lot of “what if” moments in everybody’s life. Some are big,fat,important ones, but I don’t feel ready to talk about them, specially in english lol
But there are a bounch of them that we face almost on a daily basis and sometimes they give us more trouble than the big ones.
There is the positive kind…like when you’re a kind an you experiment that glorious moment before opening your chips, thinking “what if this one contains the surprise that will finish my collection?”
To keep it on the grown up side, how many of you wait your other half thinking “what if he asks me out?” while you’re diligently putting another layer of lipstick just because.
Or when we start a new book, and think “Oh, what if this one contains the inspiration that I was waiting for? “
We all love those..they keep us dreaming and feed our creativity, keep it up in the sky.
THEN. There are the bad ones…the pre-period, bad day, vicious questions that grow bigger and bigger in our minds in the worst moments possible.
In this list, the most tipical : “what if I’m f*cking everything up?” and “what if I’m being ridiculous and nobody will ever tell me unless we met 30 years later to a marriage and they’re drunk??” (maybe this last one is just me uhu?)
Both kinds, I think, are instinct, part fantasy,and both have various levels of danger. Mostly raise too much your expectations and bring you down.
What I was just thinking is that this is all normal. It’s normal to sometimes overly-hope (and who decides if it’s really overly anyway) and it’s just healthy to release all of the fear sometimes, and panic inside our head so we don’t explode in some other place. Right?
This is that kind of thing that doesn’t have an end but it was in my mind and I thought I share..what do you guys think? :)